I’ve been spending the morning listening to the London Marathon on TV and tracking my amazing friend Elle as she runs it today and it has got me thinking. She has done so amazing with her weight loss and then to be running a marathon today its just like wow.
But its got me thinking about where I am heading and what I am doing with my health and fitness. I have no plan of action at the moment, no eating plan I follow, and no way of motivating myself to keep on going. Its a horrid thought really but I just don't know what to do with myself.
Do I go with weightwatchers, try slimming world, myfitnesspal and count calories, or do I just do what I am doing now and try and make healthier choices? I just don't know what to do for the best really.
I know doing it alone online doesn't seem to work for me but then I don't know whether going to a meeting will either. My problem is my sweet tooth really, but its finding a good way to keep control of it. I am also lactose intolerant so need to make sure I don't have foods with Dairy in.
I’m just fed up with being unhappy with myself, the way I look, the way I feel, the way I think, everything but I don't know how to bring myself back. I know I am the only one who can do it but its far easier said than done, saying just do it doesn't work. But how do I move myself forward, which route do I take, and how do I get motivated?
I have a gym membership, but do not use it as its always busy at times I can go, eg after work, but then I don't like early mornings and going before work but wonder if this may be the option I am going to have to take. I signed up for a 10k race in may but have done nowhere near enough training and will most probably end up not doing it now as last thing I want to do is injure myself trying. But it seems the pressure of something like that doesn't motivate me, if anything it makes me rebel more and become less motivated.
I’m just in self-destructive mode and have no idea how to get out.